patience.patience.patience.

I am seriously struggling with being patient and waiting for my little guy.

The last week has been brutal.
Two nights ago I started having contractions every half an hour and they were about 30 seconds long. I honestly thought I would be having my baby in the next day or two.
Still no baby. And aside from a couple contractions here or there, they have stopped.

I went to my 39 week doctor appt yesterday and I was dilated to a 2 and 80% effaced. I was bummed I wasn't dilated more but the doctor told me that my cervix is really soft so he thinks that once I start active labor I will dilate quickly but we will see.
He stripped my membranes so we will see if that does anything. If not, I go back Tuesday.

Anyway, after a few days of being super disappointed that I haven't started... I am changing my attitude.
I need to be grateful Tag is still in there at 39 weeks and wasn't too early with lots of health problems. I have totally taken that for granted.
I have 7 days until my due date.
I need to enjoy my last few days not being a mom. It's hard because I am so excited, but I will be a mom for the rest of my life.
I just need to relax.
We are almost there.

But once my due date comes... this attitude is out the freakin window! ;)

tis the season.

If you know me, you know how much I love Christmas. I have been so excited for Colton and I to decorate for the holidays. It's definitely not as much as I would like to do but being due next week, all of our extra money gets spent on baby stuff because I just can't help myself!

We decided against a real tree this year. We thought being in the hospital and with a newborn and a dog, we didn't want to worry about vacuuming pine needles and keeping it watered and maintained. So we got a fake little "charlie brown" christmas tree. I really don't think there is a feeling I love more than cuddling my husband with all the main lights off but having all the decorations and tree lit up, drinking hot chocolate, watching Elf.

Our first tree :)

Ready for Christmas and very ready for Tag!!

A few more pics from decorating.

So now, I am even more excited for Christmas and even more anxious for Tag!! :)