patience.patience.patience.

I am seriously struggling with being patient and waiting for my little guy.

The last week has been brutal.
Two nights ago I started having contractions every half an hour and they were about 30 seconds long. I honestly thought I would be having my baby in the next day or two.
Still no baby. And aside from a couple contractions here or there, they have stopped.

I went to my 39 week doctor appt yesterday and I was dilated to a 2 and 80% effaced. I was bummed I wasn't dilated more but the doctor told me that my cervix is really soft so he thinks that once I start active labor I will dilate quickly but we will see.
He stripped my membranes so we will see if that does anything. If not, I go back Tuesday.

Anyway, after a few days of being super disappointed that I haven't started... I am changing my attitude.
I need to be grateful Tag is still in there at 39 weeks and wasn't too early with lots of health problems. I have totally taken that for granted.
I have 7 days until my due date.
I need to enjoy my last few days not being a mom. It's hard because I am so excited, but I will be a mom for the rest of my life.
I just need to relax.
We are almost there.

But once my due date comes... this attitude is out the freakin window! ;)